all about space i suppose

today my day was like anyother day , got up early had a cricket match , cam bak home ... had some geusts to attend to..all was ok till the evening , i came bak from the temple .. put some nice melodies in my pc and started to read The Rainmaker - Jhon Grishm...suddenly i found myself to be really gloomy and really dull , may be it was cos of the book , wut i was reading wasa very dipressing stage in the book for the hero. dont know if tat affected me , i really dont know .. but i started sulking , asked my mom and sis who sleep in my room usuallyto sleep in the hall today. i dont know why all this , i suddenly felt i needed to be alone and silent . but the thing is , nothing comes to my mind that had made me like this b4 , not my gal dumping me , not a tiff between frnz , . today somehow and cos of something i really cant figure out made me very depressing.. i felt this grief , a sudden one , a deep greif . wonder how much impact this is gonna have on me and wut kinda impact ...may be this is fear abt something which over a period of time has brought this grief...or its a combination of many thigns whihc i myself may not know or is something wrong to a person close to me stayin far away from me [ hope tat isnt the cause].....

but i also feel from time to time every one needs something like this to happen to them...... i feel tat , tonites loneliness is gonna do me a hell lot of good. in my early days i thoguht that being alone is the worst thing and tat , tat bug should never bite me , but over a period of time i realised tat being alone is not tat bad a thing... it helps one to reflect upon a lot of things whihc u would have never given a thought to or never planned to give , donno abt others but it certainly does for me . wut i feel is tat being alone gives u lots of space , not jus llvieing space but lodas of em in ur mind..... when u got loads of space in ur mind , and space in ur mind is wut one needs when someones stressed or feels freaked out , may be am feelin too much freaked out right now and i ceratinaly gonna njoi getting more space bak in my mind